A letter to my mom

Hi mom,

just wanted u to know
that no matter what,
i always love you.
but did u know
that am very sad
for all that i have had?
i wanted you to
walk by my side
but u were always behind me
pushing me hard .
i fell down,
i dint regret,
i dint cry,
i knew ur hands wld lift me up
but i was wrong
u walked past me

mom,can u see my cries thru my teary eyes?
time will heal all scars,so they say.
i do not know what you want from me,
but iam willing to try.
my whole life is full of regrets
when evryone out there is blowing out candles.
itz a tough battle mom,
and i know i can never win this without you.

i feel tormented
without ur love and
an ocean of tears is
hidden behind my smile.
i crash, i rage,am angry
i do not know
y u make me cry
life is hard and am scared
u made it worse
when u cld have stayed
u ruined my life
even before i realised
all i wanted was ur attention
but all i got was constant rejection.
little did u think
about being so tough.

so mom, here is ur grieving daughter waiting for u to decide.
i still want u to know that no matter what ,
i ll always love you.
Gods dont send angels to evryone,
so He sends mothers.
i luk upon u as my angel
just know that here iam,
waiting to be ur lil daughter forever.


With love,
ur grieving daughter.