ON BEING ALONE

solitude vs space.
2 different meanings .

but how many of us can enjoy solitude?

how much of silence can one handle?

how long can one remain isolated?

what amount of loneliness is too much to handle? does loneliness spell trouble?

in solitude, i think and reflect on my experiences, dreams,passions.
but do i think the same way when am lonely?nooooooooo.... seriously fear creeps in the moment i step from solitude to loneliness.

spending time alone is the best teacher. very truly said.

i have looked back quietly pondering over the very purpose of my life, getting philosophical n stuff.....though not all the time.
but loneliness means am out of my comfort zone.

growing up all alone has indeed conditioned me to face solitude, but when am struck with loneliness , i just duck out. its challenging! its not fun at all.
even worse, sleeplessness and loneliness - a real nightmarish combo strikes me very often.


Did you ever see a robin weep
When leaves begin to die
That means he's lost the will to live
I'm so lonesome I could cry

its disgusting to say tht I FEEL LONELY.
its frightening. i feel am getting nowhere when this feeling sets in.
its like i have to walk on thorns all my life. i feel shattered.
its like my sky is always dark....thrz no silver lining !

past is hurting, present is killing and i have no idea what the future holds for me.
an empty feeling makes me cold. i have nothing to hold on to...am drowning in isolation. i feel hopeless. this hurricane of isolation is engulfing me ....faster than a rollercoster.
my sanity dangles.
am i walking the path of my own destruction?