TO MYSELF

iam like a mouse in a maze
a dot on a big canvas
replacing tears thru cheers,healing my scars
tryin to make it to the stars
hard learnt life lessons ,brings hope in me

am walking in to the sunlight,glistening like ice
i know i can survive,without asking y
therez nothing to fear
life flourishes evrywhr there is hope and that is the simplicity of life

it is not about getting caught in every day difficulties
but it is about the perspective we have about life
there is nothing to rush
we jus have to stop and look around
there is more to do to create a beautiful tomorrow
and my mind is not narrow

i do not want to close my eyes
i do not want to wash my tears away
i do not want to drown in painful words
i do not want to disppear
i do not want to flee from life

i know my potential is infinite and cowardice is jus a mask
my road to achievement is not smooth yet i must go thru mammoth
efforts alone will not suffice for i know i must be positive
rules of hard work governs my bone within and I pray for strength like a mountain.

Is it the doubting mind?

is it the inner darkness?

is it the absence of illumination?

is it escapism?

is it melancholy?

what is it overpowering me?

i do not understand this less than ordinary feeling.

is it destiny?

is it some deepening thoughts?

am not sure what is it..Chains in my mind escaping velocity

i have stayed wen it was nt needed

i have waited with desperation

eager to know whats in store for me

i weep inside my shell for words cannot contain my pain

anguish leaves me still and am numb

am floating endlessly---a spineless seeking

i do not know where i belong or where i would reach

something in me has died unborn....DEATH OF DESIRE!!!

Would somebody help me reingnite the spark?
answer me DEAR GOD.

A CHINESE STORY

A water bearer in China had two large pots, each hung on the ends of a pole which he carried across his neck. One of the pots had a crack in it while the other pot was perfect and always delivered a full portion of water.
At the end of the long walk from the stream to the house, the cracked pot arrived only half full. For a full two years this went on daily,with the bearer delivering only one and a half pots of water to his house. Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments,for which it was made. But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfection, and miserable that it was able to accomplish only half of what it had been made to do.
After 2 years of what was perceived to be bitter failure, it spoke to the water bearer one day by the stream. I am ashamed of myself, because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the way back to your house.
The bearer said to the pot, ’’Did you notice that there are flowers on your side of the path, but not on the other pot’s side?That’s because I have always known about your flaw, so I planted flower seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we walk back, you water them.
For two years I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers to decorate the table. Without you being just the way you are, there would not be this beauty to grace the house.’’ Each of us has our own unique flaw. But it’s the cracks and flaws we each have that make our lives together so very interesting and warding. You’ve just got to take each person for what they are and look for the good in them.
Life always gives you back, what you give out. Your life is NOT a coincidence, but a mirror of your own doings.

ODE TO MY COMPANION

hello companion,

u taunt me...
u make my days dark
u bring me a gut-wrenching pain
u make me regret
u make me rebuke
u make others laugh at me
u r a shadow chasing me
u make me surrender
u make me feel small
u r a silent threat
u make me feel agony
u hold the key to my destiny
u torment me
u leave me no choice

i c my plans fall thru
and pray they come true
i stand and watch it all go....
am tired from frustration
holding back tears
trust shattered again
promises unkept
hopes dimmed and drowned to loss
persistence failing
bittersweet ending
emotions run high
times r passing
dreams foregone
am blinded by FAILURE!!!!!!!

IMMORTAL RHYTHM

Am trying to scrutinize and analyze the deeper hidden meaning of life .
Am trying to make a difference to find a reason for the greater purpose.
The vision seems to be out of reach , am struggling for clarity.
Its a weak illusion and am confined to solitude. A great disgust, i despise.
Am battling with the familiar loneliness am acquainted with, wistfully hoping for joy forever.
I have a barrier to overcome, a crossroad in life.
I long for acceptance and a place of refuge to escape the faces of the past.
Soul cutting thoughts steal the stillness of the night and makes me hunger for the elusive.
its a time of solace, a moment of deepness....never to be shared.

Am enlightened
am wild n free
am chasing the thunder....
am flirting with the lightning...
am soaring with the eagle...
am swimming in the sea...
am sniffing a flower....
am dating a butterfly...
am singing in the rain...
am on the verge of oblivion.

I have sensed the Immortal rhythm of Life.
The deeper meaning is not hidden...it is only to be sought with deeper insight.
Life is neither the beginning nor the end.
Life is You being who you are meant to be.

LIFE WILL GO ON..................

I am inspired to move forward in life and something is pushing me onward towards my destiny. i sink into the depth of life and itz purpose and begin to have new hopes. i try hard to change the borders of life, wishing peace and happiness. i make my own decisions though iam not ready for all that the world demands. i hear a million voices sounding like mine and i want mine to be heard aloud. time is slipping and i cannot stand still. i begin to work my dreams to reality. life is short and i try to take itz punches hoping not to have a bad fall ,remembering the times i have pulled thru. i stand alone luking back of what i have withheld,what i have learned and what i have forgot. life is a circle,no stop , no start and itz no gamble to take chances. i trust in life and try not to sweat the small nuances of life. from the depths of despair, i sigh hoping for lifez struggles to end. brushing aside the stressful thoughts i build my hopes again to face the challenges of life. the constant ups and downs , twists and turns ,trials and tribulations of my life urge me to reconsider the choices of my destiny. i mask my confusion and kindle the burning flame in my heart to endure life and i know life will go on.

FLAMES OF PASSION

Tender touch,sweet whispers
no words spoken
no promises kept
desire fuelling fire
in the darkness of the night
ur smile shining as the light
abandoning all uncertainities
capturing stolen glances
of heated longing and need
approval awaiting
desires tormenting
spirits intoxicating
bodies glistening
embrace entwining
candles flickering
love inspiring
senses awakening
touch enthralling
lips ravishing
ecstasy so demanding
silencing pleasure and pain
bliss exceeding passion
lost in each other
love like no other
fused in the heat forever
need fulfilled
dream satisfied
trail of passion explored
and mad desire quenched.

TO MY HUSBAND

The first time i met you
you swept me off my feet
and my heart skipped a beat

i found love at first sight
i found my true destiny

my life changed
and dreams rearranged

your love makes me whole
i feel it deep in my soul

i love the way you always care
and all the things you long to share

your love is mine forever
everyday it gets even better

we share the sunshine and the rain
and the laughter and the pain

you stand strong when am weak
you hold the answers that i seek

you are the best thing that ever hapened to me
you are my best friend and lover for life

you are the one i desire
the one that sets my heart afire

we will walk our path of life,
hand in hand,
our heart as one
and spend our lives together forever.

RAIN, SWEET RAIN

i really love rainy days, esp rainy nights. i could sit all night and watch the tiny drops of rain without batting an eye. when we miss someone we jus cant think of anything else.
rain always reminds me of evrything that i hold dear to my heart.
i sit on my bed luking out thru the window, my arms stretched out in the rain, washing away my misery and pain and in an instant i know my life will be better.
i look at the dark clouds and wonder at the thunder crash.
rain at night is a magical time and i get caught in itz enchanting spell.
listening to the rhythm of the rain i forget all my worries, fears and anger.
the falling of the rain reminds me of the beating of ur heart and i know am missing u more than words can say.
i reflect on sweet memories and the moments we spent alone in the rain. i ponder over the moments of ectasies and pleasures and my passion for u does grow. i feel each and every drop that rolls down my cheek and relish the sweet and natural refreshment to soul. i envision u within each drip that carress me and i feel sublime. i behold to the captured moment and the rain assures me that u r within me for i hold u in my heart.

the undying need of the soul is being watered by the rain and yet my thirst isnt quenched. i ache for ur nearness and the heavy rain takes away the numbness in me. the sensual rain leaves me cold and i seek ur embrace . i luk at the dark sky and feel empty without ur smile.the silent rain creeps into the crevices of my lonely heart and i weep for u. a foggy meloncholy overwhelms me and i crumble and collapse in the rain. the thick silence of the rain squeezes the tangible emptiness surrounding my painful heart.
somewhere i hear a familiar beckon and i turn to the voice i cannot hear in the rain. suddenly i feel a cool relief and a gentle touch so comforting and tranquil , melting the fog away. i lose myself to the tantalizing kiss around the corner of my lips and the tender carress of ur strong arms. i luk up to feel the gush of cold wind ushering away the dark clouds and i thank the lovely rain for rescuing my heart and revitalising my soul by bringing back my love to me.

NEVER ENDING LOVE

i would pick all the stars from the sky
for u sweetheart i would die
letz fly to heaven above
and scream to the world
that we are in love
all i do is to think abt you
seems like i have nothingelse to do
i dream of u all day long
my love for u is very strong
i walk this place calling ur name
its so empty, not just the same
i wld give anything to turn back time
back to the life,when u were mine
my eyes water and i tremble and shake
all the pain is too much for me to take
i miss u more than words can say
i think of u every single day
the more i think,the more i weep
all i have is memories to keep
an eerie silence of loneliness
deafened by dreaded emptiness
i see you thru
the visions of the past
i yearn for all the times
when ur eyes lukd deep into mine
ohh ,nothing sweet divine
eyes that shimmer
together we quiver
whisper to me of futures impossible
corrupt me with ur kiss insatiable
my heart sings with pleasure
for u r my one true treasure
even if the stars fall from the skies
and darkness takes my eyes
i will always hold u dear to my heart.

WITHOUT YOU

from the bottom of my broken heart
i can tell that we are so apart
u filled my life with wonderful memories
someone like u is really hard to find

all my dreams lead only to you
my heart feels a note of blue
i lose myself at ur nostalgical gaze
i feel so out of place

baby, u make me go out of my mind
and i lose track of time
here iam thinking of the past
learning on love so fast

i dont wanna luk back
however tough
and i know
itz all never enough

silent and still
am waiting and longing
praying and pleading
for ur return

evry day i walk away
i hear u say u want me to stay
i need u right here
to take away every tear

without u, i feel empty
am going insane
a feeling,i cant explain
all my integrity and serendipity
just fades away
am so lost and
cant face another day.

THE BEST OF DILBERT QUOTES

1. I can only please one person per day. Today is not your day. Tomorrow is not looking good either.
2. I love deadlines. I especially like the whooshing sound they make as they go flying by.
3. Tell me what you need, and I'll tell you how to get along without it.
4. Accept that some days you are the pigeon and some days the statue.
5. Needing someone is like needing a parachute. If he isn't there the first time, chances are you won't be needing him again.
6. I DON'T HAVE AN ATTITUDE PROBLEM, YOU HAVE A PERCEPTION PROBLEM.
7. Last night I lay in bed looking up at the stars in the sky, and I thought to myself, "where the heck is the ceiling?"
8. My reality cheque bounced.
9. On the keyboard of life, always keep one finger on the escape key.
10. I don't suffer from stress. I am a carrier.
11. You are slower than a herd of turtles stampeding through peanut butter.
12. Do not meddle in the affairs of dragons, because you are crunchy and taste good with ketchup.
13. Everybody is somebody else's weirdo.
14. Never argue with idiots. They drag you down to their level, and then beat you with experience.
15. A pat on the back is only a few inches from a kick in the butt.
16. Don't be irreplaceable. If you can't be replaced, you can't be promoted.
17. After any salary raise, you will have less money at the end of the month than you did before.
18. The more crap you put up with, the more crap you are going to get.
19. You can go anywhere you want if you look serious and carry a clipboard.
20. Eat one live toad the first thing in the morning and nothing worse will happen to you the rest of the day.
21. If it wasn't for the last minute, nothing would get done.
22. When you don't know what to do, walk fast and look worried.
23. Following the rules will not get the job done.
24. When confronted by a difficult problem, you can solve it more easily by reducing it to the question, "How would the Lone Ranger handle this?"
25. Only the mediocre are at their best all the time.
26. There's a fine line between genius and insanity. I have erased this line.
27. Bring ideas in and entertain them royally, for one of them may be the king.
28. If at first you don't succeed......skydiving isn't for you.
29. Life is a waste of time; time is a waste of life, so get wasted all of the time and have the time of your life.
30. When everything is coming your way......you're in the wrong lane.

FUNNY FACTS-LAUGH IT OUT

Ultimate facts about women:


The most important thing for a woman is financial security.
Although this is so important, they still go out and buy expensive clothes and stuff.
Although they always buy expensive clothes, they never have something to wear.
Although they never have something to wear, they always dress beautifully.
Although they always dress beautifully, their clothes are always just "an old rag".
Although their clothes are always "just an old rag", they still expect you to compliment them.
Although they expect you to compliment them, when you do, they don't believe you.



ENGLISH-FUNNY FACTS

therez no egg in the egg plant.

therez no ham in hamburger.

therez neither pine nor apple in pineapple.

french fries were not invented in France.

quicksand takes u down slowly.

if the plural of tooth is teeth

can the plural of phone booth be phone beeth?

masculine pronouns are he,his and him.

imagine feminine she,shis and shim.





WIERD LAWS

In Arizona, itz illegal for women to wear pants.

In Arkansas, a man can legally beat his wife but not more than once in a month.

In Colorado,itz illegal for a man to kiss a woman while shez asleep.

In Hartford, itz illegal for a man to kiss his wife on sundays.

In Kentucky it is illegal to marry the same man four times.

In South Carolina , evry citizen is obliged to carry his gun to the church.

In California, it is illegal to set a mousetrap without a hunting license.

LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT

.........i just cant stop smiling ,like something just caught my attention.
its like my whole world is colourful like the rainbow.
i walk in the scorching sun like it is the perfect weather.
i see stars in the noon and search for the moon.
i can feel the enchanting eyes following me and i smile again.
i look at a flower in my garden like i have never seen a flower in my life and i smile so full of joy.
i keep walking back and forth towards nothing , like the world just collapsed in front of me.
i feel like am on a rollercoaster carrying the sunshine in my arms.
from morning blues itz all changed to colourful hues now.
my soul is full of passions and suddenly am thru an emotional journey.
i cherish evry moment of the daylight and surrender to the overwhelming thoughts of the cold dark nights.
my heart blooms full of life and grace and i smile listening to the racy beats.

hold on a sec!
before u doubt my sanity, i jump to the sky screaming over my head YES IAM IN LOVE.
Eros shot me with the arrow of love straight into the doors of my heart and filled it with LOVE. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT WITH THE PERFECT STRANGER.

A letter to my mom

Hi mom,

just wanted u to know
that no matter what,
i always love you.
but did u know
that am very sad
for all that i have had?
i wanted you to
walk by my side
but u were always behind me
pushing me hard .
i fell down,
i dint regret,
i dint cry,
i knew ur hands wld lift me up
but i was wrong
u walked past me

mom,can u see my cries thru my teary eyes?
time will heal all scars,so they say.
i do not know what you want from me,
but iam willing to try.
my whole life is full of regrets
when evryone out there is blowing out candles.
itz a tough battle mom,
and i know i can never win this without you.

i feel tormented
without ur love and
an ocean of tears is
hidden behind my smile.
i crash, i rage,am angry
i do not know
y u make me cry
life is hard and am scared
u made it worse
when u cld have stayed
u ruined my life
even before i realised
all i wanted was ur attention
but all i got was constant rejection.
little did u think
about being so tough.

so mom, here is ur grieving daughter waiting for u to decide.
i still want u to know that no matter what ,
i ll always love you.
Gods dont send angels to evryone,
so He sends mothers.
i luk upon u as my angel
just know that here iam,
waiting to be ur lil daughter forever.


With love,
ur grieving daughter.

You are still the one BY Shania Twain

Looks like we made it
Look how far
we've come my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday
They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night
Ain't nothin' better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missin'
They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

Robert Browning on kiss

The moment eternal - just that and no more -
When ecstasy's utmost we clutch at the core
While cheeks burn, arms open, eyes shut, and lips meet!

Romeo to Juliet (best of SHAKESPEARE)

If I profane with my unworthiest hand
This holy shrine, the gentle sin is this,
My lips, two blushing pilgrims, ready stand
To smooth the rough touch with a gentle kiss

juliet says

O swear not by the moon, the fickle moon, the inconstant moon, that monthly changes in her circle orb,Lest that thy love prove likewise variable.

Parting is such sweet sorrow

Good night, Good night! parting is such sweet sorrow
That i shall say Good night until it be morrow

A thousand times goodnight

A thousand times the worse, to want thy light.
love goes toward love as schoolboys from their books,
but love from love, toward school with heavy looks.

Ode to my baby

dear enchanted,
you are so sweet and smart,
you laugh ur own heart away.

precious one,
ur my angel
sent from heaven
u r my brightest star
u r the answer to my prayer

u have made my tomorrows full of possibilities
u r the warmest radiance of the sun
u r my world of perfect bliss
u stole my heart and brought me love
u r a miracle sent from above
u r the calm of the quiet sea
u r the patience of eternity

i reach out to you
to keep u safe and strong
i love u all the time
and i love u more and more
i thank God
every morning
and every night
for ur trusting smile
which is my treasured prize

wonderful one,
i have a task ahead
to raise u in love
u ll change my life
and i know we ll be alright

u r the angelic bundle of joy sent by God
u changed my life forever
itz lifez greatest endeavor.
there is no bond like
child and mother
and none can find another.

u r so full of mischief
and ur moods
so hard to please.
therez magic in ur eyes
and music in ur speech
i cherish the day u were born
many promises sworn
u filled the home with joy
so precious and sweet
to make our lives complete.

SOLITARY ROSE

Day after day,
night after night,
every kiss,every touch,
a love so vivid
and then comes
sudden darkness
and silence into
my world.

The candle of my love
is blown away
and the
pillar of my strength
walks away.

I would climb the
highest of the mountains,
swim to the
fathoms of the oceans,
fight the
mighty of the dragons,
walk the
deepest of the dungeons.
All i seek is my LOST LOVE.

I am the Sky that
lost the sun of the day
and the moon of the night.

My love,
without you,
am like the fallen leaf
in the autumn breeze.

Bring back the
laughter in the air and
my life is all yours to share.
Let the Angels sing and
rejoice in all the
Love you bring.

Bring back the twinkle
in my eye
and remember
never to say Goodbye.
Sync with the
beating of my heart
so that
we may never depart.

Let all tomorrows
take away
the pain of sorrows.
Thru laughter n tears
for years n years,
our love shall never fade
for Love is God made.

A bond so strong
and I know
it ll never be wrong,
our lives entwined as one
for we have just begun.

Love brings new life
and takes away all strife.
Let love mend my broken heart
with all joys of lovers art.

My love is like
the sunset on the horizon,
the rainbows across the cascading waterfalls,
the untouched blue of the ocean,
rare as a desert rose,
like the lustful calmness of the rain,
my heart,so in pain!

Even as i write ,
tears brush my cheek,
for love is all i seek.

Here is the cry of
the Solitary rose
waiting for
love's propose.

A word to my best friend

hello best friend,
you have brought so much joy to my life.
you have always been there for me in good and bad.
'thank you' will be too small a word,so i say a lil prayer to God above .
May He bless you and keep you happy always.
I wish to see you smiling all your life and the smile should be as long as river nile.

Every day is a brand new day
and there is always
something new to say.
If you are the cloud,
let me be the silver lining.
If you are the sunset,
let me be the glow.
you make me wear a big smile on my face
and i know
am in the right place.
you are my dream,
you are my wish,
you are my
special Gift!

Attachment is pain;

In love, no one is to blame.

A feeling of loss,

The days of gloss

Is hard to feign.

Without you,

Am so lone.

Thoughts of you,

Chills my bone.

I wish i could love;
a love that has never been given away.
But where is the Soul to receive it?
Entrapped in passion like the whispers of the red rose to the honey bee;
Love like the warmth of the blue summer sky and the beauty of the rainy dusk.
A song of love to sing to my heart,
as serene as the music of the waves,
indulging in a sweet surrender;
To me, Love is a wonder!
Glory to the magical moments of Love!

If life chose a colour for emotions,let it be red, for, my heart would bleed till the last drop to end its suffering.
If transparency be the call of life,O Soul, my eyes would rain tears to rest thou in peace!

Instead, life chose love to put an end to pain and agony.
My soul! Thou shall not cry anymore.
Sing the sonnets of love until the sweetest cry of the nightingale fades away and keeps worries at bay.