Is it the doubting mind?

is it the inner darkness?

is it the absence of illumination?

is it escapism?

is it melancholy?

what is it overpowering me?

i do not understand this less than ordinary feeling.

is it destiny?

is it some deepening thoughts?

am not sure what is it..Chains in my mind escaping velocity

i have stayed wen it was nt needed

i have waited with desperation

eager to know whats in store for me

i weep inside my shell for words cannot contain my pain

anguish leaves me still and am numb

am floating endlessly---a spineless seeking

i do not know where i belong or where i would reach

something in me has died unborn....DEATH OF DESIRE!!!

Would somebody help me reingnite the spark?
answer me DEAR GOD.